HiddenGalaxy

This is both an angry vent and a sad vent, so prepare yourself if you dare to continue reading my dramatic complaining. Probably just overreacting.

Alright let's get started.
So I can't help but feel like this isn't right. It's not right. This isn't the way I wanted my life to turn out as. I didn't ever want to be this person. I'm not a terrible person, I don't do drugs, I don't drink, and I don't have my legs spread to every living creature. I'm normal. I do average in school, usually c's. I'm not proud of myself, I had a goal of becoming an honour's student, and have a clean locker, and be the person everyone likes. But I'm not. I'm not that person. I'm slipping down the tube for grades, my locker is stuffed with papers from last quarter, and not everyone likes me. Apparently I'm the "emo bish" of the school. I've had years stacked on years of bullying and the "emo" thing came into play in seventh grade when my best friends turned on me. I had no one, and I was falling down hard. I struggled, and I couldn't get on my feet. I'm trying to stand up more and more everyday but there always has to be that one jerk who has to push me down in the dirt again. I hate being pushed around. I hate it. I'm so frustrated all the time because of this that it results in me having a poor attitude for school. I don't know. Again, I'm trying, but boy succeeding. Also, moving onto another thing. I'm not a kid anymore, I'm a growing young adult, with responsibilities, things aren't just handed to me anymore, which sucks. I wish I could still go to my grandma's house and sleep all day or my other grandma's house and talk to my friends on the computer all day, but no, I have the responsibilities of maintaining keeping up with the summer school work and such. And money's getting tighter. My parents tell me not to worry, but I worry. I'm scared. I'm trying to wait the next three years out so we can move five hundred miles away. Speaking of the online friends, I miss them. I miss Steven. I miss Inez. I miss Andy. I miss Rex. I miss the other Andy. I miss Rasa. I miss Felix... I miss them all. Those were the friends I didn't have to worry about, the friends I could tell them stories and they wouldn't hide, they'd assist in helping me feel better. My friends in reality just shove me off and change the subject to themselves. Will there ever be a time just so I can talk about me and my problems? I will listen to all my friends for hours, days, weeks, years...but seriously, ask me if I'm doing okay or if I'm feeling alright. Because this year, I'm just not feelin' it. I'm struggling and I'm scared. I just wish I had someone to pick me up and put me on my feet. Someone like a prince who can pick me up and then dust me down. I would appreciate someone like that. Thanks for reading. I'm left out a lot.

I'm in school right now. :l

YOURE THE TYPE OF GIRL THAT TEXTS ALL DAY AND TALKS ALL NIGHT <3
Hi guise c:
How are you all~
I haven't uploaded anything -_-
Sorry :C
RUBEN IS MAKING FEEL SO MUCH BETTER ABOUT MY SINGING! :3 ...no one else is. -.-
YOU STILL SLEPT WITH MY BEST FRIEND.
the sadness will never end. <3
If it loads ^^^^
I'm tired.
Blah.
I'm sooooooooooooooo tired.
Gonna watch all of Vampire Knight again and I'm gonna cry, I feel it. 😅
Guys. Don't become models. It takes a lot of work. .-.
My eyes hurt.
Maybe I'll cry, but I'm just so tired.
Lemonade<3
I had portillos for dinner cx
Maybe I should've pressed play if I wanted my song to play lol.
Cody makes ugly faces with me over snapchat and it's great.
My ex boyfriend actually made his profile on Facebook say that he's dating two people?...
Ew.
He's cute but no.
GUYS DO YOU WANT TO HEAR ABOUT RYNE? HE MAKES ME SO HAPPY INSIDE, HES SO INSPIRATIONAL AND I LOVE HIM. :3
mom keeps asking me if I love him yet. -.-
idk if I even truly love anything...
I'm not coming home tonight...
Well, goodnight my lovelies, I love you all<333

Heyhi. It's Krypto here, y'all. I'm currently in bed right now, all warm and snuggled up, the window is cracked just enough just so that a cold breeze can rub against my cheeks...my puppy correctly placed on my feet, keeping them warm. Sir Draven, my dragon, laying besides me, and my moose, tenderly wrapped around my waist. The crisp taste of ginger ale fills my mouth, and refreshes my senses. I can smell the leaves and grass outside of my house and that is instantly soothing. Everything is calm and peaceful until I press play on the remote control. This Is The End overlaps the noises and smells of nature, and replaces them with familiar voices and realistic smells. But something else is off. My mind and heart are elsewhere. My mind is soaring through the pale blue sky, fluttering around like a spring butterfly. My heart is higher than my mind, touching the hot stars and touching the cold moon. I feel it come over me again, the darkness has taken over me once again. I know it's wrong...but I miss the feelings. I miss when we'd talk for hours and hours. I miss you. I miss craving your lips. Although I've never touched them with my own. I wanted them since I first met you. I desired the soft feel of them, and the firmness they'd hold when pressed on mine. My heart skipped a best, and fell back down. If probably never see you again. My mind falls hard into the gutter, scratching and scraping as it hits every bump, every rock. I'd never see you again?! If never see you again?! Then it all comes back to be like a loyal pup with a frisbee. You were gone and I was still here waiting for you. I had no choice to say the things I did. You didn't care for me, but I cared for you. I dedicated myself to you. I loved you. I think I still might, but I cannot afford it this time. I go back to wrapping myself up, hugging onto Sir Draven and my moose, wiping away my warm tears, and shutting my eyes. The movie now turned off, and all was quiet once again.

THIS IS A REPOST OF THE STORY**


the static between us original

 Running through a forest always clears my mind and refreshes my body. When my heart beats fast, when the wind flows through me, when each step hits a pile of leaves and they crunch...it's just perfect. I wanted to take a break from working and decided to come to this one hidden spot I had been shown to a long time ago.
 It was deep within this forest, and it was magical. Surrounded by privacy-filled trees, and warm sunlight pouring through the tops of the plants, was an undiscovered hot spring. It was the most amazing thing I had ever found out about in this forest other than the crystal caves.
 As I near my destination, I hear a loud rustle behind me and I stop running to look behind me. I don't see anyone, so I begin to walk ahead. I hear another sound of movement.
 Swinging around to see behind me, I see no one, but I spot where the movement is. I then walk close to it and peek through the small patch of plants. It's only a bunny that runs far away once I moved its shelter.
 "Oh," I turn back around and run right into the prince. I'm not too fond of him at the moment.
 "Good afternoon, Katie." He says.
 I stare at him deep in his eyes. "I told you not to call me that. My name to you is Krypto."
 He seems offended, "Oh but why must I follow that command? You cannot tell me, the future ruler of this land, what to do."
 I push past him, "Just shut up."
 "Dear Katie, come back to me." His voice was so mysterious and alluring, but I could resist. I proceed walking. "Katie."
 And then I stop. "What."
 He doesn't turn to face me, and I don't face him either. We're looking in opposite directions. "You must stop avoiding me, it's getting ridiculous. You know how much I care for you, now don't you?"
 I instantly turn around, "I don't care if you do or if you're lying to me! You must not understand how much you scarred me by doing what you did. So seriously, leave me alone."
 I turn back around to head to the spring but he is right in front of me. "How dare you resist me again. You know how unrealistic that is for a woman like you to not desire royalty?"
 "Excuse me but I have somewhere less annoying to be." I say rudely.
 The prince is baffled. "Excuse me, but we need to talk. That thing that happened in between us, I know it damaged you...but-"
 "Damaged me? Damaged me? No it did not! It just disappointed me to see how you had changed and I hadn't noticed. Now, leave me alone!" I stomp off, heading to the spring.
 I could feel his smirk burning into me. I know this wouldn't be the last time I saw him today. Once I turned to look at him, he had vanished.

 The hot spring looked so warm today, so welcoming. I push the leaves of the large plants back into position in which they were so no one can see me or the spring.
 I take off my cover up dress and throw it under a small cave formation. I have on a hot pink bikini, that brings out my hair, eyes, and skin tone. I take in a breath of fresh air, and then dip myself in.
 I swim over to the ledge and sit on the smoothest rock that's placed underwater. My head is barely sticking out above the glassy water surface. I then close my eyes and take it all in. Everything is perfect just how it is. This moment is amazing. Until I feel movement in the water.
 I open my eyes yet again, and look around the spring. Nothing and no one was here. But...I did feel as if I was being watched. I bring my knees up to my chin and hold them close. I stay quiet and close my eyes, hoping that I wouldn't have to open them again.
 This was the same exact spring the prince had brought me to when we were younger. He had held my hand so tight when he told me all his secrets here.
 "Katie this is the spot!"
 "The spot?"
 He looked at me with such innocence. "The spot where I got turned into a vampire!"
 I hug my legs tighter and have a quick hallucination of the water being full of blood. Full of the prince's blood. My body trembles at the thought of it. I squeeze my eyes tighter and then a hand is placed on my shoulder. I jump as I open my eyes.
 I tear up as I see him. The boy I had once loved, the one who had been there for me...the one who was different. He pulls me into an embrace. "What's wrong, Kate? What happened?"
 I was so remorseful for this boy but he still decided to make me suffer by doing unforgivable things. He was holding me so tight in his arms. So tight that I could barely catch my breath. "Kate, tell me what is the matter..."
 I pull back and wipe off the tears from my eyes. "It's nothing..." My voice trails off. "Why are you here? I told you to leave me alone."
 "I could sense your unsettling feelings and I wanted to make you feel better, even if you do proceed on withstanding me." I huff in a large breath of air as he pulls me back forward. "I can't stay away from you."
 I try to pull away but he was holding me too firmly again. "Prince...stop, prince!" I watch the ripples in the water move violently. "Why are you doing this to me..."
 Instantly, he pushes me back and holds me by the shoulders. His head bows down, "You must not understand...I refuse to keep my feelings caged inside me any longer. Katie, you mean the world to me. My world...my universe, it all revolves around you. My heart beats for you, I breathe for you, I keep myself going just for you, even if you do not desire me." I look away but he takes his one hand and forces me to look at him. "You are the one who saved me, you are the one who kept me going and preventing me from becoming a despicable and evil creature. The least I can do is forever give you my love." He moves his lips by my ear. "I love you and always will."
 When he moves his head away from mine, I feel different but empty. "I'm sorry prince, but you should understand why I'm not liking you right now..."
 He looks up at me, and then shakes his head. "Kate...you mustn't remind me about that. I've apologized plenty of times, I've told you what actually happened...what more do you need?"
 I push him back. Not softly, but hard. "You can't do that to me either. You're making it seem like I'm the bad guy here."
 The prince doesn't say anything but he starts to move towards the edge. I come up from behind him, and take his hands while I have my whole body against his back. "Don't take it wrong, prince, you're amazing."
 "Is that so? Then why are you the only one who thinks so and I've hurt you? You can still compliment the old me when the new one has taken over."
 I grip his hands really tight. "I know the old you can still come back, that's why."
 He turns to face me, but stops. "I can't even look at you right now."
 I put my head against his back. "I know..." But then he does turn around and quickly swoops me up and throws me onto his hips. "What're you d-doing?"
 "Remember when we were kids we would play Whoever Dies First Loses?" He asks quietly. I shake my head. "Well it was where I'd have you where you are positioned right now, and you'd try to stay up on me while I did something to you. And you'd try to get me to fall before you fell."
 "And what was that something?" I ask confusedly. He starts to blow on my belly and to tickle my sides. I burst out laughing and start swaying to make him fall. We both are teetering and laughing hard. I start messing up his hair and he gets playfully annoyed and tickles me harder. I then kick off the rock behind me and knock the both of us under.
 The water is hot on my face and even hotter when I open my eyes and watch the prince come straight at me with a large smile on his face. He comes close and kisses me under the water. We both come up after a few seconds and look awkwardly at each other but still have smiles.
 "You never did that when we were kids..." I say.
 He tilts his head and grins. "I thought I could punish you for winning."
 I blush and turn away. "Well then..." It's so hard being with him. I'm always going to be mad at him for what he did to me last year, but he's so charming when he's playful. I love and hate him.
 "What? Did you not enjoy that? I can always make the punishment an actual one."
 "I think I should go." I didn't mean to say it. I didn't want to say it but it just came out.
 He comes up from behind me and picks me up and cradles my body in his arms. "Please don't."
 I don't say anything but I wrap my one arm around him. Then I confess. "I didn't mean to say it."
 "I know..." He completely understood why I said that. I really wanted to love him right now but I don't want him to think that he can come here and sneak up on me every time I come here. "I wish you were in love with me, Kate." I look up at him and he is looking up into the trees. "I wish I could make you truly happy and I wish I could be happy too."
  "You're not happy?" I ask.
 He doesn't answer right away but when he does, he sets me back down in the water. "I'm only happy when I am with you. When you resist me it makes me feel...lonely and unwanted. When I have to stay away or leave you alone, I can't stay away..."
 I ball my fists and move a little away. "Then why did you do it."
 His sigh is depressing and I know he wants to come and hug me and apologize once again. "Katie...please..."
 "No, prince, tell me why."
 "She was sick, and I wanted you to be happy... That's why. I knew that it would make her healthy but what I didn't know was that it would kill her in the process."
 "I will always hate you for that you know." I say.
 Repulsed, he gets out of the spring. "You cannot say that to me without hurting me immensely."
 "You can't proceed to be in love with me without having to live up to what you did!"
 He turns to me angrily. "I didn't know turning your mother into a vampire would drive her insane to the point where suicide was the only option! I'm sorry, okay? I didn't want either of you to be sad that she had cancer and was most likely going to die. I did it for you. I did it for her. I did it for your father."
 I step back. "P-prince..."
 He glares at me. "Now you must be tired. I will bring you home and you will be off of duties for today. Unless you'd rather stay with me, then that's fine too."
 "I'm so sorry for how I have been treating you, Prince." I say quietly but my tears then start to speak for me.
 "No!" He immediately jumps in the water and holds my face in his palms. "You mustn't say that! You...cannot say that. It's my fault that you do this to me. I was the one who caused this for myself, I should have let your mother get healthy on her own but you mean so much to me..."
 I look down with my eyes and my heart sinks. I miss my mom, more than anything. I knew that her cancer would only make her suffer but going through the pain of becoming a vampire and then going insane to the point of suicide was ridiculous. "Hey prince?"
 "Yeah?" He replies, his hands moved back to his sides, underwater.
 I look down with sad eyes. "Do you think you could turn me into a vampire?"
 Slap. It echoed through the air and it hurt. My heart skipped a beat but all I could do was hold my breath and stay in shock. The prince had slapped me.
 "You're d-mn mad if you think I'd do that to you. You have been angry with me for over a year now and confessed your hatred towards me also." His voice instantly goes up and he yells as he shakes my shoulders. "I am not losing you more than I already have! I'm not..."
 I watch the prince as he slides his hands over his face and starts to tear up. "Don't look at me." Then he turns around. "You still know you mean far too much to me to turn you. Your mother was the first person I had tried to turn into a vampire and you saw how that turned out. I do not think I am completely capable of turning you even if I did all the right things. I do not want to see you fall into the clutches of a monster who lusts for blood. I'm not going to let you be immortal, even though I'd have to suffer when I see you with another human boy or when you pass away."
 "Then turn me." He looks back at me with sharp and wide eyes that were filled with hate and irritation. "If you turn me, then I will promise that I'll be with you. Always traveling the endless strings of time."
 "No. I knew you wouldn't understand. Your wager meant absolutely nothing to me, it could have if I knew your love for me would be included. Although," he bites his lip. "I know your love for me doesn't exist and not even you forcing yourself to stay foreverly with me just to become a beast would make me happy. What you just offered upset me."
 I step back a little bit. "Then if you're so angry, be your monsterous self and bite me. Come on I know you won't."
 When he focuses his eyes on me, they're a blood stained colour and it was incredibly terrifying. My heart beats fast. Was he actually going to bite me? He moved so swiftly in the water, and pushed me up against the rocky wall and it hurt. His strong palms were holding against my weak wrists. His eyes pierced my soul like no other thing has ever. His look was so dangerous but majestic and irritable. The prince's head made its way next to mine and I could feel his heavy breathing on my neck.
 A slow, drawn out lick on my warm neck was next. My cheeks were incredibly red and I couldn't handle it. My fingers were clenched against his hands and I held them so tightly that it hurt him. I felt his twitch when I tightened my grip. The present action of his that I was feeling was the sharp fangs hidden in his mouth grazing my neck.
 "What have you done to me, Katie." He moves in front of me and looks me straight in the eyes. "I will not tolerate that behaviour again. I will be taking off now. Am I taking you home?"
 "I'm sorry for what I did Prince, but...am I still welcome to stay with you tonight?"
 He shakes his head and runs his fingers through his hair. "I am sorry but not tonight."
 "Fine. I'll walk home then, or better yet, I won't talk to you until you decide to be a real man." I get out of the spring, throw on my dress, and storm off. I was angry on the outside but worried on the inside. He's never said no to me coming to the castle. I really had no right to be mad or to say that I wasn't going to be speaking to him.
 I make it out of the forest, and walk through the lonely town to go home. I guess I make a couple wrong turns and get stuck in an alleyway with no exits.
 But that's not the worst part. The alley is full of vampires who haven't eaten in awhile.

 "Why hello, child." One says with a British accent.
 "Yes, bonjour." Another says.
 I look around at all the red eyes glaring at me from all around. "Hey there." I say as more greet me with their foreign tongues.
 "You know, we're quiet famished." The original says.
 I shrug. "Sucks for you vampires."
 They are repulsed but they end up having large grins. The French one steps close and is up in my face. His cold but soft hand is rubbing against my cheek and I'm frozen in place.
 "Oh yes, it does suck, but not for us. Your blood will slowly be sucked out through all different parts of your small body by each of us until it's all gone."
 I step back and ball my fists. "You won't hurt me."
 "No," a blonde vampire with only khakis on chokes. "We will make you suffer."
 I start to shake on the inside but stay strong on the out. "Stand back!" I swing my fist at him and he catches my punch strongly in his palm. He lightly scratches my skin so blood drips and so he licks it up.
 "Aren't you confident to be licking up my princess' blood-that didn't need to be shed?" I look up and on the top of the building I'm against, is the prince standing tall and firmly. I continue to watch him as he gracefully leaps down and lands gently in front of me. He doesn't look back at all, and I know he's upset with me. "You all have no business in attacking her."
 "Come on boss, we were just having some fun," says the blonde, now in a cheerful mood. "No harm was done, eh little lady?"
 I gasp but then look away. The prince is angered immensely. "You all need to leave before I go insane on all of you insignificant pests."
 They all bark in objection. "You can't make us!"
 "You can't control what we do and who we feast on!"
 The prince steps forward and everyone goes back. His sharp glare pierces everyone including me. Would this be a massacre-or would the turning royal fall once and for all?